I don’t know about you but for me, coming from a life and lifetime of drama, trauma and dysfunction, I had no idea what I “believed”.
I was simply trying to survive.
It wasn’t until someone who had traveled this path before me started educating me about how my belief system impacted how I felt, what I did and didn’t do and why I struggled with being stuck year after year.
I felt powerless but had no idea how to recognize or resolve this for myself.
I felt hopeless, sad, despondent but was clueless what this had to do with my “beliefs”.
I felt helpless and believed to the bottom of my soul that I had no choices – even when I was told I did.
And what I came to discover was that these “feelings” were my beliefs made manifest and….
If I could learn to recognize this in myself?
That I could change my life.
The short version….
A belief is nothing more than a chronic pattern of thought, and you have the ability—if you try even a little bit—to begin a new pattern, to tell a new story, to achieve a different vibration, to change your point of attraction. The Law of Attraction is responding to your vibration, and you can easily change your vibrational point of attraction by visualizing the lifestyle you desire and holding your attention upon those images until you begin to feel relief, which will indicate that a true vibrational shift has occurred. —Abraham
In other words…
If I could learn to recognize the patterns of thinking that caused me to feel less than, hopeless, helpless and powerless…then I had the power to create the change that would change my life.
Choosing to live a conscious life requires that we be willing to let go of the illusion that we are still stuck in the same place we’ve always been. Learning to choose to live an awake life was probably one of the most difficult and challenging things I’ve every done.
And the most rewarding.
Although to be honest, while this was a truth that set me free from the prison I’d created for myself in my mind?
As Gloria Steinham has said…
First it pissed me off.
I was livid at the idea that I could “create my world” or that I wasn’t already “conscious”.
What I didn’t understand though was that my world was what it was not because I’d “created it” and all the bad shit that had happened to me but that by not knowing how to create what I wanted…I often ended up with what I feared, what I hated and what I didn’t want.
Once I came to understand the power of living a conscious life and that by learning to check, challenge and change my negative stinking thinking patterns I was set free from living a life I didn’t want to create the life I did want.
Are my thoughts and the feelings that are created by those thoughts based on my life experiences.
I had to learn how to give myself some new life experiences.
The energy that I am putting out to the universe…
Every word I spoke or thought were “prayers” and petitions to the Universe/God/Goddess – that has no option but to give me what I am asking for.
My life made manifest – consciously or unconsciously – comes from this and the awareness that I and I alone held the power to create the change that would change my life.
When I didn’t like the life I’d been given I discovered that by choosing to be conscious of what I was creating that I could create something else.
You ARE enough, you are complete; you have everything you need to do this.